So i'm already counting down to when i get to move back home. It feels so close sometimes and yet other times so far away. I think of small positives that make it seem closer. For example i only have 3 music classes left....i only have two more classes to learn new information in math. See things like that make it seem more bearable. Some sadness...i only have 4 more days with my daisies. I'm going to miss them so much. They have become so dear to my heart.
Well i have been unhealthy for 9 days now and i can't tell you how badly i just want to be healthy again. All that really remains is a sore throat but it's not your run of the mill sore throat. it's the sore throat from...well you know where. Good news is that it has felt okay several times which is a first since the last couple days there has been no relief. I'm just HOPING i'll wake up tomorrow morning and it will be gone :)
Oh, good news i hadn't shared. When i was home for spring break i met with an adviser at BSU and was told that anyone with a GPA from 3.5-4.0 is almost guaranteed entrance, and i have a 3.6-3.7 something :) sooooo I feel pretty good about that. Something NOT so good is i found out there is another class i might have to retake another class.. and not just ANY class - pathobiology. Which nearly killed me the first time around. I REALLY REALLY don't want to take it again. ughh makes me just sick to think of taking it again. But i'm going to try to petition it and see what happens.
Oh yeah, one good thing about having been sick. Well i am on a diet and have been for like a month, and i'm trying to lose some of the treacheries of college life. One of my goals was to be able to wear these jeans i bought on ebay that were too small. Well after i had been sick last week i put on the jeans i had been wearing and they were SO loose and even my belt where i usually put it was too big. So i tried on the jeans and guess what? They fit!! So happy about that. I guess i just need to get sick when i want to lose weight. haha i'm just kidding. it was not a very enjoyable week at all being sick.
Anyways that's all for now i guess :)
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Life...
You know...isn't it amazing how you can have this great plan for your life that you feel is your path and what you are supposed to do but it seems SOOOO hard to get to it. It's hard not to consume over my failures.
Basically what I'm referring to is the fact that i found out recently that i can't apply to the nursing program at BSU until the fall for the spring. I have one class that i took at ISU that is slightly different then what BSU requires and so i'll have to take it this fall so i can apply and they don't offer it in the spring...so there is no other way to do it. Also i found out i have the wrong chemistry classes so i get to take one class in the summer and one class in the fall and apply for spring semester for Nursing...but i mean there is no guarantee i'll even get into the nursing program when i apply.. It's like this is my biggest aspiration in life yet it feels so impossible right now. I just want to get done be done with school. I only want to go to school so i can be a nurse...but at this rate who knows how long it will take. I have 5 semesters of school left when i actually get into the program so there is no saying when i will actually graduate. Kinda depressing not gunna lie. I keep telling myself just to trust God and that it's going to work out and that i'll make it through...but its way harder to do than it is to say.
I suppose on a positive is that In 3 months i'll be done with school at ISU so however long it takes me to graduate i'll be home with family so that's good. Makes me keep working hard ya know?
Well it's superbowl sunday and i think everyone is going to campus to watch it in a little something or another.. haha very descriptive right? well anyways i don't want to go there. i would be okay watching it at my brothers (even though it really smells and is dirty) but i don't want to sit in a chair for 3 hours. i want a couch or a lovesack or something. haha. so i don't know what i'm going to do.
Basically what I'm referring to is the fact that i found out recently that i can't apply to the nursing program at BSU until the fall for the spring. I have one class that i took at ISU that is slightly different then what BSU requires and so i'll have to take it this fall so i can apply and they don't offer it in the spring...so there is no other way to do it. Also i found out i have the wrong chemistry classes so i get to take one class in the summer and one class in the fall and apply for spring semester for Nursing...but i mean there is no guarantee i'll even get into the nursing program when i apply.. It's like this is my biggest aspiration in life yet it feels so impossible right now. I just want to get done be done with school. I only want to go to school so i can be a nurse...but at this rate who knows how long it will take. I have 5 semesters of school left when i actually get into the program so there is no saying when i will actually graduate. Kinda depressing not gunna lie. I keep telling myself just to trust God and that it's going to work out and that i'll make it through...but its way harder to do than it is to say.
I suppose on a positive is that In 3 months i'll be done with school at ISU so however long it takes me to graduate i'll be home with family so that's good. Makes me keep working hard ya know?
Well it's superbowl sunday and i think everyone is going to campus to watch it in a little something or another.. haha very descriptive right? well anyways i don't want to go there. i would be okay watching it at my brothers (even though it really smells and is dirty) but i don't want to sit in a chair for 3 hours. i want a couch or a lovesack or something. haha. so i don't know what i'm going to do.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Some thoughts
I have had every intention in writing in here for like 2 or 3 weeks. But you know the road to hell is lined with good intentions. Haha good thing this isn't spiritual or anything. I have had a lot of thoughts and other such information I have been wanting to share. One thought was brought about by my visit home. It just kinda makes you put things in a different perspective when you have been gone and you come back to a place that has carved a knew path without you in it. And with every person I have some sort of major themed thought...you know like :
“they really care about me”
“they really don't need me at all”
“they are kinda flaky”
“they are sweet”
“they act like know-it-all's”
“they are really bossy”
“they want to invest in my life
Yes I know these aren't necessarily all things I SHOULD be thinking...but nevertheless. I do. But it makes me evaluate my life. What do people say about me. There is a song by....Britt Nicole? I think. It's like “I wanna leave a legacy, how will they remember me.” And seriously, what is my legacy. What is your legacy? Like seriously, if you left this world today where would your fingerprints be. What lives would you have impacted. What lives would you have brought closer to Jesus, which would you have taken farther away by the way you lived or treated them? Just kinda thought provoking in my opinion. It really makes you want to live your life for everyone else, for Jesus, for anyone but yourself. That is the way it is supposed to be anyways right?
Second thought is a verse I read. And everyone has heard it. Or nearly everyone :) but this is in the message. And I so appreciated how it said it.
Luke 10:27 “He said, 'That you love the Lord your God with all your passion and prayer and muscle and intelligence –and that you love your neighbor as yourself.'”
I don't think I'm going to add anything else to that verse. It speaks for itself. It challenges with 4 words – passion, prayer, muscle, intelligence. What is that to you and how can you love God with that?
Well I think i'll end it there. Hope this was challenging for someone.
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