You know...isn't it amazing how you can have this great plan for your life that you feel is your path and what you are supposed to do but it seems SOOOO hard to get to it. It's hard not to consume over my failures.
Basically what I'm referring to is the fact that i found out recently that i can't apply to the nursing program at BSU until the fall for the spring. I have one class that i took at ISU that is slightly different then what BSU requires and so i'll have to take it this fall so i can apply and they don't offer it in the spring...so there is no other way to do it. Also i found out i have the wrong chemistry classes so i get to take one class in the summer and one class in the fall and apply for spring semester for Nursing...but i mean there is no guarantee i'll even get into the nursing program when i apply.. It's like this is my biggest aspiration in life yet it feels so impossible right now. I just want to get done be done with school. I only want to go to school so i can be a nurse...but at this rate who knows how long it will take. I have 5 semesters of school left when i actually get into the program so there is no saying when i will actually graduate. Kinda depressing not gunna lie. I keep telling myself just to trust God and that it's going to work out and that i'll make it through...but its way harder to do than it is to say.
I suppose on a positive is that In 3 months i'll be done with school at ISU so however long it takes me to graduate i'll be home with family so that's good. Makes me keep working hard ya know?
Well it's superbowl sunday and i think everyone is going to campus to watch it in a little something or another.. haha very descriptive right? well anyways i don't want to go there. i would be okay watching it at my brothers (even though it really smells and is dirty) but i don't want to sit in a chair for 3 hours. i want a couch or a lovesack or something. haha. so i don't know what i'm going to do.
